It makes me so very happy and scared to be done! Why am I scared? Because I have no idea what's going to happen in the future. Am I really going to be going to beauty school in a year? Will I pass my GED test? (It would be really embarrassing if I didn't pass that.) Will I still be able to keep my job next fall when I am hopefully attending Aveda and will only be able to work two days out of the week? I don't know! I dislike the unknown so very much! I started to think that people were going to think/look at me as a dumb person for not doing anything right after high school. It has always been my dream to be a beautician! But what if I'm actually not good at hair? Will I have wasted $18,000 on something that I'll never be good at?
I thought all of that while I was waiting for my family to find me after I graduated. I went into this major freak out mode in my head. But this is a test for me to trust the Lord. I have already stated that I hate the unknown so I need to trust in Him if I was peace about the future. I have a very hard time doing that when I've thought that something was going to turn out very differently. But the Lord knows best. He knows what's going to happen with my life. I will follow Him. I will trust in Him with all my heart.
